Moving from 2015 towards 2016
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. - Robert Frost
Last year same time things were so different. I did not for once realize my destiny, my life, my fate everything is going to be changed in a span of 3 months.
Shifting to Delhi was not easy. It was mentally and physically exhausting. N number of discussions, debates and tears preceded the decision. I remember running to my room in a pool of tears slamming the door shut on the face of everyone who tried to even talk to me. I remember being frustrated and screaming at the top of my lungs.
It did not end there. I wanted humanities stream when the world was against me. Not my parents though. But ya everyone else - from my teachers to my friends parents. But nowhere in Kanpur provided me what i wanted. The limited options that I had did not suffice me. Either the school did not offer the subjects i really wanted or the school provided some hell lot of past traumas.
Therefore we decided to come to Delhi. And now that I am here, I don't think I would like to look back. Something about this place makes me think like I belong here, like I always belonged here. I don't really know what attracts me and pulls me towards this place. Maybe it's the culture or history this place has to offer or the yummy delicacies one gets used to living here or maybe it is just the people.
Anyways nothing comes easy to be honest. I started school here ofcourse. It was amazing and everything. I got my choicest subjects and the teachers knew their stuff ( unlike ofcourse some previous experiences ) and my class mates made me feel involved and belonged for the first time. But things were not the same. Things were not IIT Kanpur. It was really difficult to digest the fact that I was living in IIIT Delhi and not IIT Kanpur. I would yearn for my friends everyday because hey I grew up with them. I've seen and apent my whole childhood at that place, obviously it was hard not to miss it.
Last year same time things were so different. I did not for once realize my destiny, my life, my fate everything is going to be changed in a span of 3 months.
Shifting to Delhi was not easy. It was mentally and physically exhausting. N number of discussions, debates and tears preceded the decision. I remember running to my room in a pool of tears slamming the door shut on the face of everyone who tried to even talk to me. I remember being frustrated and screaming at the top of my lungs.
It did not end there. I wanted humanities stream when the world was against me. Not my parents though. But ya everyone else - from my teachers to my friends parents. But nowhere in Kanpur provided me what i wanted. The limited options that I had did not suffice me. Either the school did not offer the subjects i really wanted or the school provided some hell lot of past traumas.
Therefore we decided to come to Delhi. And now that I am here, I don't think I would like to look back. Something about this place makes me think like I belong here, like I always belonged here. I don't really know what attracts me and pulls me towards this place. Maybe it's the culture or history this place has to offer or the yummy delicacies one gets used to living here or maybe it is just the people.
Anyways nothing comes easy to be honest. I started school here ofcourse. It was amazing and everything. I got my choicest subjects and the teachers knew their stuff ( unlike ofcourse some previous experiences ) and my class mates made me feel involved and belonged for the first time. But things were not the same. Things were not IIT Kanpur. It was really difficult to digest the fact that I was living in IIIT Delhi and not IIT Kanpur. I would yearn for my friends everyday because hey I grew up with them. I've seen and apent my whole childhood at that place, obviously it was hard not to miss it.
I've talked about school. Let's talk about myself-how I've changed...or not. Change is inevetible. The thing is I know I have "changed". But then again who dosen't? I don't compile with the notion that a person dosen't change, surroundings and circumstances change. I've changed. I've adapted. I've adopted. And finally I've moved on. It is important to keep changing and adapting because if you have come to this earth then only the survival of the fittest will prevail.
I don't want much from this new year. In fact I'll be very happy to continue with my current regime. But if I must... I want peace. Peace for myself. Peace for people around me. I want to keep changing and evolving for the greater good. Also I really hope 2016 is actually happy just like 2015 was. Actually I hope it is happier.
Happy new year folks. Try to make it a nice year. Be happy. Stay happy and spread happiness.
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